Starting over
I am starting over yet again. I weighed myself this morning and I have gained 10 lbs. I actually expected it to be a bit worse than that, I guess having that flu helped out.
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I am so angry, disappointed, depressed, ect. I know that the gain came from my struggle with not smoking. I have gone from an average of a pack and a half a day to less than five a day. Yesterday I had only two. I also have all but quit drinking as well.
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In the evening I would usually have a couple glasses of wine or cocktails. I noticed that after a glass or two of wine I wasn’t hungry, so eating wasn’t an issue for me in the evening. Boy has that changed!
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I don’t want to give anyone the wrong impression here, drinking was never a problem for me. I know that, because not having that wine in the evening is as easy as not having brussel sprouts, it’s not something I sit and think about…unlike the cigarettes. I just figured that it was extra calories that I didn’t need so I cut it out.
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So I am writing this 10 lbs heavier and I can feel it. Actually, I haven’t felt well in about a month. Between fighting every germ and virus known to man, withdrawl from nicotine, eating garbage, and now carring that added weight, I feel like crap.
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The low carb thing is no longer working for me. My body is actually craving fruit and milk, and my energy is in the toilet. So I’m thinking that a low fat, low calorie thing might be in order. Maybe I’ll give that whole ‘points’ deal a shot, although I’m not quite sure what that is.
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So I reset my ticker ( man that pissed me off ), and I am back to weighing in weekly. I have exactly one month until Jarod’s big party. My first goal is to stay on my diet until then, no brakes, no cheats. My second is to do some form of exercise 5 days a week, without fail.
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Here we go again, wish me luck Buddies.
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Hey Erika, you have every reason to feel down and I’m not going to sit here and tell you to “not worry about it” because I gained 13 pounds when I quit and another buddy of mine who quit January 1 has gained 20 so in all fairness, that’s probably where90% of the 10 pounds came from. I can totally and completely understand how hard it is to quit and the frustrations from watching that scale rise. Now be depressed but start making those calorie adjustments right now. I’m all about calorie counting because you can have everything and anything within range. Now what I have learned is that you have to eat! Both Mary and I did the whole 1200-1500 and didn’t drop much weight. Now Mary’s at 1900-2100 and I’m at 1500-1800 and we’re losing like rockstars…..If I may, I would recommend Mary’s range and see how that goes for you. Don’t be freaked about the amount of food, specially if you’re going to be working out so much! I’m almost 100% certain you’ll lose the first week and if not, you’re welcome to come over here and kick my _ _ _ !! It’s sunny here and in the 70’s.
Good luck, Erika. You’re making great strides with the smoking and now looking at the weight loss, too, at the same time. I believe you can do it. You seem to be really focusing on getting where you want to be. It’s going to pay off. Concentrate on what you CAN do and stick with it. You’re going to see success in both areas…at the same time…that’s awesome.
I wish you the very best of luck, dear buddy!!
Nikki’s singing my praises, but I don’t know that I warrant that. I’d gained close to 10 lbs, but I’m back where I was before the gain. I don’t know if I’d call that losing like rock stars!! But the weight is coming back off.
I was sooo skeptical about eating more, but it seems to be working. I guess it’s just very difficult to wrap your mind around the fact that to lose weight you have to eat!
And, as Nikki said, counting calories, you can pretty much eat what you want, as long as you stay within your range.
But I know you can do this. You’ve already proven that. You just have to make up your mind that you will.
Good Luck Ericka!! I need a fresh start too!
You can do it!
I think the best part of your blog was the last sentence - Here we go again - even if it did come off as sad from you. Why wouldn’t you feel like crap after all you’ve gone through? Sometimes it amazes me how ‘guilty’ some people feel for having perfectly reasonable reactions to circumstances. You are not giving up, and that is why that last sentence is the KEY - not the weight gain, not this or that, but persisting is what matters. And you also need to set realistic expectations. It’s great that you want to give it your all and workout at least 5 times, but if you are even a little nervous about fitting it in, then don’t be afraid to say instead you’ll dedicate one day less. Keep trying and don’t give up.
I still don’t quite understand how you live without brussel sprouts
I cut out wine too for the calories, but I find I want to eat less when I don’t drink. As soon as I have wine I get hungry and its harder to say no.
I think following your diet must be hard ’cause you are such a caregive to everyone, and cook all that great food. So much temptation around!
I think its great you are reevaluating and not giving up. not of course, that giving up and exploding is an option.
You seem able to do so many things. I’m sure you can do this too.
Here’s to starting over buddy. I’m right there w/ you. Let’s do this together.
I am glad you are being honest.
Low fat low calorie is the way I have been doing it. My dad told me the carb this is bad because I have so much energy.
Just take baby steps
Fresh starts all over the place, huh???
I am ready girl. We can do this…TOGETHER!!!!
Lets make May our month!!!
Dawn