Erika

Hello all, for those who remember me…I’ve missed you all terribly…for those who don’t, ” Hi my name is Erika and I am a bad Buddy. ”

Life has been…well, to say the least trying lately.

My job is going very well and I love it, the problem is that I have been given a taste of what my life was before I became a stay-at-home-mom and wife 8 years ago. at it has taken a serious toll on my marriage. So much so that Ethan and I are talking about a seperation.

Well I’m talking about it, Ethan is walking around looking like he has been hit by a truck.

He is a wonderful man, an incredible father, he is faithful, responsible, and all around good guy…it’s me. I need more.

Being out in the real world again has forced me to rediscover that person that I have supressed for so many years.

I can tell you the precise moment it happened. About 100 years ago I was known by my nickname….”E”

Just E, that’s what they called me. So one night I was behind the bar at work and one of the customers asked me my name. I told him Erika, and he said I think I’ll call you E.

My friends who I work for bursted out laughing and said that everyone used to call me that, within days that was how I was known by everyone, and I was left thinking….I remember that person…I miss her.

So that’s where I am, and that’s what I’m doing…trying to find my way to wherever I am supposed to be, and who I am becoming…or should I say rediscovering.